Posted by Anonymous on 2012/06/26 under Uncategorized When he broke up with me, I just couldn’t understand it. I was so happy, the happiest I’ve ever been and i couldn’t believe it was going to end. I wouldn’t let him break up with me at first, I just refused to accept it, but later when I finally allowed it I could literally feel my heart break. I stopped being able to breathe, I sat and I cried asking myself; why would he do this? this must just be a dream, this cannot be real. I couldn’t believe the pain. In the same conversation where he broke up with me (initially it was in person but the final answer was over text) we decided we would still be friends. I cried all that day and night and the next day, until i had a concert where I was waiting by myself for my friends. I texted him. We talked for the rest of that night during the concert, and it was the only thing that made me feel better, i felt happy. We’ve spoken every single day since the break up and continue to flirt with each other… a lot. I don’t really cry anymore, but it still happens. There is so much I would want him to know, but moreover I never want him to know how much pain he caused me. We have never spoken about the break up or how we felt about it. All conversations are casual and pretty much the way they used to be, just less cute and cringey. He’s still one of my best friends, i care about him, and love him and I’m so glad that I am still able to talk to him. But I don’t know what i want anymore. I want to kiss him, and be with him; but at the same time the thought of getting back together (if that is at all possible) kinda scares me.. what if he hurt me again? I’m just so confused and conflicted in my thoughts. -A-